The night Isabel Hyde told her husband Alex that he had a small penis, which was true, but not the point, was the night she realized her husband had created a small stage for her and had given her the outline of a script from which he wanted her to read.
“You know you really don’t have much down there,” she whispered to him as he thrusted so weakly she could hardly feel him.
“I know,” he said. But he didn’t shrivel up as most men would hearing those words. Instead, his small member thickened all it could and he began thrusting into her with an energy that delighted her.
He was sexually submissive. He enjoyed the idea of his wife sexually humiliating him by criticizing the size of his penis and in other ways too.
Just a week before, while sitting at a martinis bar celebrating their 2nd anniversary, he’d told her he had fantasies of her having sex with another man. The ultimate sexual humiliation.
“Really, would you want me to do that?” she asked calmly.
“Yes.” He assured her, he would. But only if she wanted to.
Later, at home he showed her a video he’d found online of a woman bent forward, her skirt hiked up, grasping a dumpster in a dark alley while a large, well-tattooed and apparent stranger fucked her from behind. Her boyfriend watched from the shadows of a dark corner where we’d seen her take him by the hand and say “Wait here.” She’d then gone back out on the street which was pulsing with the sounds of Latin percussion, found the stranger, led him back to the alleyway, near the silhouette of her boyfriend, unzipped the tattoo man’s pants and hiked up her skirt so he could enter her.
Isabel watched the video with a mix of amusement, arousal and repulsion.
The next day, when the erotic spell had vanished, the whole idea felt wrong. How could her husband love her, yet want her to have sex with another man? She felt confused. In her mind those two things did not go together, and she decided to tell him that.
She never did. Her repulsion did not win out. There was something intriguing too, something about the idea made her laugh and loosened her spirit. This could be fun. She might not tell him this, but she admired Alex for telling her that he was a sexual submissive.
When she brought up the subject with Alex, her tone skeptical and hesitant–something she’d learned to do with men when it came to sex. Any hint of a “yes” to most men meant a full “yes.” She’d gotten used to building walls where she might have wanted a doorway. “I could never do that. Not for real. But maybe we can have some fun pretending.”
“I’d like that,” he said. “I’d like it if you would pretend you’re seeing another man and then tell me all the details, especially about the sex.”
Isabel thought about Alex’s fantasy a lot the next few days. And in her mind she grew to like the idea. She felt a strange sense of freedom, as if the castle doors had been opened and she was free to walk the fields and explore the woods, the chance to have her cake and the opportunity to eat it too.
But her excitement also seemed to trigger a strong need, though she couldn’t have said why, to tell Alex that she could never do it for real. She could never have sex with another man. That was out.
“We can play. We can pretend but there’s no way we can do this for real.”
Alex was reassuring. “Okay. I never want you to do anything you don’t want to do especially something like this. I’m just glad you don’t think I’m crazy and that you’re willing to pretend. It can be our little game, our secret.”
Isabel liked that idea. They had a secret.
So she began pretending and her imagination soared. She teased him while making love. She mentioned an actor she liked and told her husband she’d used her fingers to make herself cum several aile içi seks hikayeleri times while imagining the actor seducing her in a bar and taking her back to his place.
A month later, out of the blue she announced she had a date with handsome new computer technician who’d been coming by her office. She said he loved martinis and knew how to make a good one. They had a date right after work the next night.
“It’s just for an hour. We’re meeting at his place to have a martini.”
The way she told the story Alex thought she really had a date with a computer tech guy.
The next day, she arrived home late. She took her husband’s hand and pulled it down between her legs over the crotch of her panties which she had dampened with warm water in the restroom at work.
“He came so much. Can you feel that. He really, really wanted me.”
Alex pulled his wife into bed. He was on fire. Isabel couldn’t believe how excited he was. While her husband towered over her, thrusting with all the muscle he could manage she made up a detailed story about her lover and what had happened when she arrived at his place. It was all just a story but she got the feeling that Alex thought it had really happened.
Isabel liked the effect it had on Alex. It even scared her a little how well she conjured stories, as if she actually knew how to be a woman with a lover and a cuckold husband, as if the story she concocted was something she was completely capable of doing herself.
Maybe that was why she needed to tell Alex she’d never do it in real life. How could she make up a story so easily if she truly hated the idea?
“You know I’d never actually have sex with a man at his apartment before coming home to you. You know I just dampened my panties with water in the bathroom at work. It’s all make believe.”
“I know,” Alex said. Then, confronting her in a way that was unusual he asked, “Why do you need to remind me it’s make-believe all the time? You’ve told me ten times you could never actually do it and every time I remind you that I don’t want you to actually do it because you don’t want to.”
And so, over the next several months, the game continued. But, it was all make-believe.
One Fall weekend, Isabel went to a book conference in a city several hours away. She was a writer and had a novel published a year before she’d married Alex. She’d been to this conference numerous times and usually Alex went with her, but this time she went alone.
Attendance was low. The guy in the booth next next to her was someone she didn’t recognize. He was tall, broad shouldered and completely bald. A couple of times he made eye contact with her and smiled before he introduced himself.
“I’m Nagle Lear,” he said.
Isabel asked him about his name and he said it was the name of the street his parents lived on when he was born.
“No ‘Lear,’ was their last name, too,” he said. “We lived on Nagle. Though Nagle Lear would work as a street name. Turn left there at Nagle Lear then go straight for half a mile and you’ll be at the foot of the mountain.” He laughed.
Isabel felt embarrassed. But she wanted to keep talking to Nagle.
She asked him about his book. He told her his wife had died of breast cancer fours years ago after battling it for several years. The cancer had metastasized into her spine and collapsed two vertebrae, so it had been a painful fight.
Watching her die broke his heart. It changed his life. His book was about grief. Isabel read the first chapter after he handed her a copy. As she read, she felt overcome. She stood quickly facing away from Nagle and grew dizzy so that she had to sit down quickly and wipe the back of her hand across her forehead.
She turned to him and spoke. “Your writing is so raw and vulnerable. I don’t know if I’d have the courage to write such an honest, painful book.”
Later, he asked her if she wanted to join him at a martini bar not far from the hotel. They could walk.
She laughed, feeling more relaxed having spent the day near him and listening to him talk with the people who stopped by his booth.
When he asked what she was laughing about she was thinking about Alex and how her husband would enjoy knowing she’d just been asked out on a date.
She told Nagle that it was nothing, an inside joke.
“So you’ll have a martini with me?”
“I will,” she said. As soon as she said yes she wondered if she should text her husband to tell him. She decided not to. Still, she couldn’t stop smiling. She had a date at a martini bar. That must be a sign of something more to come.
After she’d packed up her booth and put her unsold books in her car she waited in her space while Nagle closed up his booth. He had talked for a long time to two older women who’d stopped by as the conference was closing up. Again she thought about calling her husband to tell him she was about to have a drink with another man. This time she walked over to the atrium, some distance from their booths and pulled out her phone. She looked at it for a moment then scrolled through her Facebook pages and opened a video of a dog with a kitten sleeping on his front paws. She pushed away thoughts of Alex and walked back to her empty booth space, sat down and smiled at Nagle.
At the bar she had two martinis. One more than she knew she should have. This made her more talkative, brattier and flirtatious. “You know you shouldn’t have invited me here. I’m a married woman.”
“I thought a good martini–or two–might bring your defenses down.”
“Why would you want my defenses down?”
“So I could kiss you.”
“It’s working,” she said, tilting her head and looking around. She didn’t know why she said that.
He put his hand behind her neck, leaned forward, and pulled her towards him. He kissed her. She leaned into his kiss, opened her lips and felt his lips open too. His kiss wasn’t urgent, as if he knew that would overexcite her, so he let his lips linger a few moments, as one lingers for a moment when stepping into a dark, unfamiliar room. When her mouth softened, in a receptive way, then he kissed her deeply.
Before going back to his room, Isabel slipped off to the bathroom and called her husband. She planned to tell him the whole story and what she was about to do but instead told him she was out with friends she’d met at the conference. She told him she’d already had two martinis.
Her husband teased, “Careful sweetheart. There are probably a few men in that place ready to take advantage of you.”
“I know there are,” she said with a tone of realism she thought for a moment might to her husband like a confession.
They hung up.
Nagle held her hand as they walked back to the hotel. They took the elevator up to his room. She traced the outline of the button she pushed to get to his floor.
He undressed her and she slid under the covers of the king size bed. She liked the way he kissed. His kiss had taken away all her defenses but the martinis had also left her just the right amount of dizzy, floating atop every heightened sensation.
“Kisssss me again,” she said slurring her words.
He kissed her a lot before he entered her. She laid on her back. His thick penis hurt oh, so good, when he entered her.
“You’re so big.”
“Does it hurt?” He asked gently as he pulled out.
He had not put on a condom. She did not bring up safe sex. She turned away. The room spun. After another kiss she turned her head away and tears fell.
“You okay?” he asked
“I’m okay,” she said sucking on her breath and looking back up at Nagle.
She reached down and cupped his bottom and pulled him deeper into her knowing it would hurt. She wanted that.
“This is what Alex wants.” she said softly to herself.
“What?” Nagle asked, leaning close.
“Nothing, nothing,” she whispered.
She felt Nagle push all the way in. The pain wasn’t too bad. She’d adapted to his size. After he grunted he stopped thrusting and she knew he had cum.
The next day, at home, at bedtime still sore from the size of Nagle’s penis, her husband snuggled up close to her and whispered, “So did you get snatched up by a hot guy at that bar last night?”
She was quiet for a moment.
“Let’s give this cuckold play a rest, darling. I don’t want you asking if I’ve had sex with another guy whenever I go to a book conference or event. You know I’ve told you I’d never do that.”
“Okay,” he said, resigned, “but it’s so much fun.”
“I know it is. For you.”
For the next three months Isabel did not tease Alex. She never made up a story about another man or pretended she had a hot date. Instead she felt a mild contempt for her husband. She was quick to criticize him and lost her sense of humor. They had sex but she became disgusted when he tried to make love to her. One time when he entered her she pushed him away sneering as she said, “Your dick is so small I can barely feel it.”
Alex felt lost. His wife was mean. Her words weren’t playful anymore but more like knives. If she wasn’t sharp and hurtful she was sullen and quiet. They didn’t play, there was no stage, no script from which his wife improvised to entertain his sexual submissive soul.
Isabel couldn’t stop thinking about Nagle and the night they had spent together at the book conference. She sent him emails often and he responded with short, superficial but pleasant emails.
I’m doing well. My kids are fine. Hope your writing is coming along.
His lack of response fueled her longing. She arranged a meeting with a book club in Columbus and wrote to Nagle that she would be staying at the Holiday Inn in Bexley. Did he want to have another martini with her?
He never responded but there he sat when she went down to the bar that evening. They went up to her hotel room together snd spent the night making love.
They began seeing each other once every other week or so. He’d drive to northern Ohio and rent a room in Sandusky at the Marriott or Beverly Inn and they’d spend a couple hours together after she finished work.
To Alex’s relief, Isabel began teasing about his small penis and how much she enjoyed having regular sex with her lover after work.
Isabel liked to make Alex run his fingers over her wet panties like she had when she first pretended to meet a computer technician. But now Alex was running his fingers over his wife’s semen soaked panties from her rendezvous with Nagle.
“See how wet he’s made me.” She taunted her husband with the truth.
Once Alex licked his fingers after he’d stroked her wet panties and said to Isabel that his fingers smelled a lot like semen not water from the facet at work.
“See how badly your mind wants me to be fucking a real man,” she said, slipping out of her damp panties and tossing them in the dirty clothes hamper they shared in their spacious closet.
“I don’t know,” Alex said, seeming unconvinced. “I don’t hear you say you’ll never do it for real anymore. You used to say that all the time.”
“I guess you convinced me that there was no need to say it anymore. So I don’t.”
This was how Isabel told herself she wasn’t lying about her relationship with Nagle–by no longer telling her husband she would never do it for real. Alex’s refusal to figure out what that meant, in her mind, made him a real cuckold and that was, after all, what he wanted wasn’t it? To be a real cuckold.